TA MUCHLY

Because of your power ,
I am alive

Because of your truth ,
I am free

Because of your guidance ,
I am confident

Because of your touch ,
I am whole

Because of your presence ,
I am joyful

Because of your mercy ,
I am grateful

Because of your love ,
I am

IF

IF possible to start one's life anew ,
my first love will be is you

IF time allowable ,
sooner or later you'll know that I'm changed

IF there's a chance for me again ,
I won't be wilful , barbarous and domineering anymore

IF you trust me ,
please show me that your faithful on me

IF you do ,
please let me be by your sides now and ever

IF once a day ,
we lost each of others
please do remember that I'm still waiting for you

When You Call It " LOVE "

The right person you found
the ending will appear

The ending is here
the sadness getting to start

The sadness incessant
the silly thinking are nonstop

The silly thinking in your mind
the foolish matter you'll do

The stupid matter you done
the loathe will be on you

The abhorring started
the hope become hopeless

The words I wanna to say is I'm still waiting for you .

WHY ?

Yesterday..
???????????????
Kept appear in my mind

The time at Attitude pub
You and your friends standing outside there
While she stop her car..
You took two glass of beer came in front of the car
You throw towards us
The glasses broke
Me and her inside the car
I'm crying and talking phone with mummy
She asked for help from her cousin
You're in mad and ask her to get out from the car
You called your follower bring me to the pub
When the first step I step into the pub..
There's many many people kept looking at me
Almost all of them in the pub
My tears kept falling
Those uncle asked me not to cried
My heart kept worry that what will happen at outside

Few minutes later..
You came in with your bleeding hands
My heart totally stop
When I'm in front of you
Looking at your bleeding hands
My tears really cant stop
When touching your bleeding hands
My heart so pain
Why wan make till like this ?
Worth ?
She didn't treat me how
What for such that ?
She still got two kids in house
She needs to take k of her little kids
For sure that I also dont wanna to see you get hurt

While going to report police with two of your friends
I kept asking them this and that
They told me that you quite siak me
They said I'm their princess
All of you wont lets anythings happen on me
Arrived police station..
I saw she was there too
I stop them and asked them not to be there
I really felt so sorry to her

1 somethings..
Back to the pub
There's two police outside there
But luckily you're on the way to home
After the police leave
Your follower send me by using your car
In the car
The phone kept rang included mine
Unknown was calling me
Your follower told me that you know that I wanna to be a stewardness
You asked all of them to find out the information for me included your friends who are at kl

Thank lots
I know that you quite care about me
But please NOT to fight because of me ok ?
It's not worth
You make yourself pain only

She is my sis , You're my daddy

NO REPEATING IN MY LIFE ANYMORE SUCH LAST NIGHT

Whats Going On Today ?

Finally..

Arrived home at 2 somethings
Daddy was drunk
I'm worry when he driving
Luckily nothings happen

The time in Attitude Pub..

Tears falling
Because of You
I kept thinking of You

Those boys kept show magics to me
But I'm not in mood
Daddy kept intro boys to me
I'm not interesting in them

Daddy said
There many boys hope to marry with me ?
PLEASE DON'T
I'M NOT INTERESTED

Sarah..

A girl friend of daddy
She is a mummy but she still young
We're friends now
I felt that she is good
Told me many many many things
She said.. ' Break up is normal. Must looks forward but not stop '

For You

The one who I love..

Althought
It's HURT..
I never ever mind it before
I didn't blame on it
It's IMPOSSIBLE..
I'll keep waiting for You
I'll continue loving You
I'll thinking of You at all the time
It's UNBELIEVE..
I'll prove it to You
I'll changed
It's END..
I won't give up

Nobody..
else can replace You in my heart
My heart and soul..
only for You

Pray all the night..
Before I asleep

My daddy

Daddy..
a ' baddie '

But..
I feel that he so cute

Tonight..
He
was drunk
keep repeating the same things
keep bullying my bro

Sometimes..
He is..
cute
funny
big big child

Sometimes..
He make many things that I dislike

I just wan a ' normal ' daddy

Waiting..
Whole night didn't sleep again..

When then can stop such this ?

Tired ?
Can't stand it ?

NO..
I'm afraid

Afraid that...
Once a day
YOU found a new lover
sorry , my idiot thinking

However..
I'll waiting for you till the end
I swear it

Crying..

I'm crying alone here ,
keep thinking of you
and
listening to fall for you

Can't asleep
I'm waiting ?
What I'm waiting for..

Days by days
Dying
Hurt
Sad
Cried
Stupid

The only things I can do is..
Changed

I change because of you

BUT...
There nobody trust on me
Especially YOU
the one who I need

HURT...

A simple word

BUT..

Yet it many meanings

YOU hurt ME ?

I hurt YOU ?

NO..

Is JEALOUS hurt me

Is BREAK hurt me

Is BLUFF hurt me

Is FAKE hurt me

Is BETRAY hurt me


BUT..

YOU are the only one for me

YOU are the only one I love

YOU are the only one I wanted

YOU are the only one in my heart

YOU are the only one changed me

YOU are the only one I trust

YOU are the only one I need

etc.............